And I, I took the road not just less traveled but not really ever traveled by anyone, woman nor dog, except for maybe rattlesnakes, lizards and tortoises

by Lorin Michel Saturday, April 1, 2017 7:53 PM

Saturday mornings are my refuge from life. Especially when it’s cool, the temperatures moderate under a cloudy sky and only the faintest of breezes drifting through the desert. This was the situation today when Riley and I set out on our Saturday morning walk. We go alone, just the two of us, mom and puppy, a woman and her dog. Saturday is Kevin’s day of working outside and I respect that. It’s his respite from the week previous; mine is the long walk with the dog. Soon it will be too hot to do this so I take advantage of it while I can.

Leash secured, I zipped up my sweatshirt, donned my sunglasses – a must even if it’s not currently sunny because my eyes are sensitive and because the sun might pop at any moment – grabbed a water bottle, slipped my phone into my back pocket and off we went. 

Riley is a good walker and like all dogs, loves it. He prances along, sniffing everything in his path, stopping to stare down any errant leaf or twig that wasn’t on the road yesterday. It’s comical to watch him as he dares whatever it is to move. Naturally, it won’t, unless there’s a sharp gust of wind. We had none of that today.

We started down Mira Vista Canyon Place, heading west. Like the canyons of Southern California – Topanga, Malibu, Decker, Benedict, Laurel – there is only one way in and one way out. It’s one of the scary things about California. If there is a natural disaster, the people who live in these canyons all must exit the same way at the same time. I suppose it’s scary here, too. We are surrounded by desert fauna, and at certain times and especially in the summer, that fauna is dry, tinder for a brush fire. There would be a rush toward the exit. But we are not heavily populated here; there are only 14 homes. 

We walked toward the gate and like most Saturdays I planned to exit through and walk further than weekday mornings. There is time; and today there were favorable conditions. We pushed along, Riley trotting by my side. We stopped for some water and continued on. There were no creatures out. We saw no deer, not even a rabbit. The only car that drove past us was the non-waving Mabes. There’s always one unfriendly neighbor in every neighborhood.

At the gate, we climbed up the small rip rap hill and walked around and out. At the end of the road, I usually go left. Left there are homes and paved roads. I went right instead. 

There is a sign just past the turn to our road as you climb north. It says Primitive Road, Not Regularly Maintained. There was pavement for several hundred feet but as we crested the short hill in front of us, that pavement ended. To the left was Ponce de Leon. I love saying that name. Ponce de Leon. Much like I like saying Kuala Lumpur.

Again, we went right, onto Coronado. The pavement crumbled into dirt and rock. There were no homes along the path, though there were the old tracks of off-road vehicles. Riley and I trudged up and down hills, carefully picking our way through rocks and brush, my eyes constantly down watching for snakes or Gila monsters. We stopped again for water and I surveyed the desert. The saguaros are beginning to bud, the ocotillos are already waving with orange flowers. Mesquite and palo verde trees, brittle bush. Everything green and lush by desert standards. To the north, more houses dotted the hills leading up to Mount Lemmon; to the south were the homes in our neighborhood and the city far beyond. 

We kept going. I worried that it might be a harder hike than I anticipated but nearly two and half miles later, we found the paved road of Winnetka Court. Again we turned right, south this time, and found our way back to Mira Vista Canyon Place and home.

We could’ve gone the normal way, the expected way. But I, I took the road not just less traveled but not really ever traveled by anyone, woman nor dog, except for maybe rattlesnakes, lizards and tortoises. And it made all the difference on this Saturday.


by Lorin Michel Wednesday, March 29, 2017 9:40 PM

March is an odd month. On the one hand, it ushers in spring with its warm temperatures and balmy breezes, and flowers spilling out of trees and bushes. This spring, we’ve had unusually warm days and nights, though two nights ago, we also had an unexpected thunder and lightning storm that temporarily brought cool back into the desert. Birds are everywhere, bugs have returned, including the tiny gnats that love to swarm when we walk. There are bees and wasps. Lizards are once again prolific.

March is our dating anniversary. Twenty-two years ago on this past 22nd, Kevin and I found each other. Two years ago, on the 24th, we moved into our dream home. March has been good to us as a couple. 

It’s also been difficult for us emotionally. On March 6, 2012, we had to say goodbye to our beloved Maguire. He was our first puppy love and had been with us since 1997. We used to joke that we got together, got the house, got the dog and then got married. Maguire was just 10 weeks old when we found him in the middle of February. He had been surrendered to the animal shelter in Agoura so we didn’t know his actual birth day. Our vet determined the 10-week age and by process of subtraction we decided to give him Christmas day as his birthday. It seemed perfect. A celebration of a supposed angel with an actual one. 

When we lost him on March 6, we were devastated. It had taken us days to make the decision, but as we sat on the floor in the pet hospital, we knew as awful as it was, it wasn’t right to keep him as he was. I laid down next to him, ran my hands through his fur, hugged him carefully. He felt greasy; he felt as sick as he looked. I asked him for a sign that what we were about to do was right. He had been heavily medicated after suffering a nearly fatal series of seizures on Friday night. It was now Tuesday. The veterinarian had taken him off of the anti-seizure medication in the hopes that maybe he would come through it but as I lay there with him, feeling his faint breaths, he had another small seizure. Moments later the vet came in and he was gone. 

At the end of October of that year we decided it was time to rescue another dog, and we found our Cooper. He was an older dog at six. We think that he was ultimately even older than that, though we didn’t care.  We had some issues with him. He was afraid of everything, mostly I think of being abandoned, and he masked it by being aggressive – not towards people, but towards other dogs. It took us a while but by working with him, we taught him to trust. He traveled with us, moved with us, and then moved again. He became a good boy. But when we moved into this house two years ago, he was very sick. The vet had diagnosed idiopathic vestibular disease. His balance was off and they didn’t know why. It usually clears up within 72 hours, but it didn’t. He developed pneumonia, and we rushed him to the Veterinary Specialty Center. Five days after we’d moved in, on a Sunday morning, during a time that should have been joyous, he stopped breathing. We weren’t there. It haunts us. That was two years ago today. 

March runs the gamut of emotions, the highs of love and commitment, the lows of losing two of our boys.

But it’s spring, when life renews itself. I’m sitting here, looking at our newest boy, sleeping in the sun. He’s three, happy, healthy. As March winds down, we’re all doing our best to live it out loud.  


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Design as art as function as wow

by Lorin Michel Monday, March 27, 2017 10:01 PM

Yesterday, I learned about a sofa from de Sede, a company based in Switzerland. I was reading the Sunday New York Times, which is nearly a day-long project. To submerse myself in intellect and art, in news and events and fear, is how I prefer to spend my Sunday mornings. Some people go to church. I gave that up when I was 15.

The New York Times Style Magazine is a thing to behold. It’s a weekly version of Architectural Digest and requires that one sit, preferably with a hot cup of coffee, and turn the pages slowly, savoring the images, reading about designers, discovering oddities that you’d never have in your house but are fascinating nonetheless. 

I’ve always loved Architectural Digest but I’ve always said that the houses they photograph, while stunning, never look as if anyone lives there. They’re stark, sterile even; distant. Still, it’s fun to live vicariously. 

Yesterday, I discovered something called the de Sede sofa by a designer named Ubald Klug. Born in St. Gallen, Switzerland, in 1932, his childhood interests aren’t known though I wonder if he was fascinated with stairs and making them loungeable. From 1952 to 1955, he trained as an interior designer with Willy Guhl at the Kunstgewerbeschule. Following work placements with architects in Zurich and Helsinki, he joined sculptor François Stahly in Paris in 1958 for three years, and attended lectures by Jean Prouvé twice a half-year. He settled in Paris in 1966, and after a number of years as a designer in the Mafia agency, Klug started his own business as an interior architect and designer. His various activities in interior design include work on exhibitions, trade fair stands, showrooms, shops and restaurants in France, Germany and Switzerland. He has designed products for the furniture, watch, textiles, glass and ceramics industries. Ubald Klug has received various internationally prestigious design awards for his work, including the International Design Award of the State of Baden-Württemberg and the Swiss Design Prize. He has also received awards from the Design Zentrum Nordrhein Westfalen and Industrie Forum Design Hanover. 

To my knowledge, he’s still alive and perhaps still designing. I hope he is, because this sofa looks positively divine. 

It’s described like this: “Two sophisticated, strong design sofa elements form the perfect basis for implementing your own interior design and furnishing concepts. The single element is like a terraced hill with widths and depths that vary in tapering steps. The elements ‘left’ and ‘right’ constitute a welcoming two-seater sofa, a seating pyramid or a small range of upholstered hills. By adding extra elements, it is possible to create entire seating groups to match your ideas and requirements.” 

My home has no space for such a form. Even if it did, it doesn’t have the right personality. I’m not sure where a piece of furniture like this would fit. Maybe nowhere. Maybe that’s the point. As with much design, the idea is more that it’s interesting, fascinating; that it causes you to stop turning pages and to say, quietly, as you sip your coffee: Wow. 

"I believe that innovation is crucial," Ubald Klug said.

Like I said, divine. Much as you’d expect on a Sunday morning.

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by Lorin Michel Sunday, March 26, 2017 10:43 PM

Spiny. Irritable. Cranky. Needle-y. Prickly. Of or capable of sticking, biting, piercing. The country is currently in the throws of a prick who becomes more irritable, biting and sticking every day. He cranks at people, in his own party, in the country, in the world. Some of us crank back. Prickly describes a person who is difficult, doesn’t like to compromise, won’t take yes for an answer; always seemingly spoiling for a fight. A person incapable of reason.

Our architect/builder fell into the prickly category. Every once in a while he’d be in a good mood and seem to enjoy what he was doing, almost liked interacting with the people – us – paying him. But not often. Mostly he was irritable and cranky, not liking any ideas that changed his preconceived notions of how it should be; how he wanted it to be. During our numerous challenges, he won some but so did we, which usually made him more prickly. 

But as I walk through my house, with its curved walls, its stone columns and tumbled Tuscan tile; with its endless glass overlooking the immediate desert and the city in the distance; with its stainless steel fixtures and appliances; with its nestled place in the hill. With its view of the hillside above and behind us, reaching toward the sky. I am softed. 

The hill rolls up with natural gneiss rock formations. It’s alive right now, swimming in yellow flowers atop brittle bush, the pink of Regal Mist, the creosote bush, the coyote bush, the wild juniper, the errant bougainvillea, barberry; the apache plume. Atop the ocotillos, blood orange flowers tower. The prickly pear, the flat paddled, low to the ground cactus, are beginning to bud. Soon, their fruit will appear in deep red and pink. You can make ice cream or gelato from prickly pear fruit. You can drink a prickly pear margarita. There’s prickly pear licorice. 

The saguaros stand majestic, tall and thin and numbering in the hundreds, thousands. Most have spires, or arms. These are what give them the look everyone knows from the old Spaghetti westerns. Cactus that look like they could hug you, but don’t be fooled. They’re beautiful, rarely angry, but prickly nevertheless. The saguaros are the definitive plant of this Sonoran desert. It makes sense, since this is the land of the Native American and legend says that: 

Quehualliu was the most handsome Indian of the tribe. He was always picking up flowers for Pasancana, the beautiful daughter of the chief. Together they learned how to walk and to play, in the most beautiful places of the mountain.        

One day when they were older, they fell in love. But Pasancana's father wanted his daughter to marry another boy in the tribe. When Pasancana and Quehualliu heard this, they decided to escape.        

The next day they were walking in the hills and they made a plan: on the following day when the first star came out they would run away to the mountains..         

When the chief found out that his daughter had defied him, he called together a group of men and started looking for the couple.          

Pasancana and Quehualliu were tired, so they sat down to rest. Thanks to the light of the full moon they saw the men coming and asked the Pachamama, the goddess of the land, to hide them. She took pity on the young lovers and opened a hole in the mountain and hid them there. The chief shouted "They can’t hide forever!" and he and his men stayed there all that night. The next day the lovers had changed into a cactus, Quehualliu, protected by Pasancana. 

Definitely a prickly situation.

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A guy and a girl walk into a bar

by Lorin Michel Wednesday, March 22, 2017 10:21 PM

There used to be a place in Woodland Hills called Yankee Doodle. It was ostensibly a pool hall but I didn’t know that 22 years ago when I made arrangements to meet someone there for a drink. He was coming down from Chatsworth; I was already working in Woodland Hills and since he lived in Woodland Hills, it seems the perfect city if not an OK place to meet. 

I got there just after the pre-determined time of six because a lady likes to make an entrance. I was wearing a long skirt and a turtleneck sweater; boots. I was still thin then and I could actually tuck the sweater into the skirt and not look bulky. I had purposely dressed this way. I looked nice but not like I was trying too hard to be dressed up for a date. Truth be told, I didn’t really care much about going. It was more out of curiosity that I was there.

I parked my Mazda MX-6, a car I had already come to hate and I’d only had it for about three months, in the Yankee Doodle parking lot at Canoga and Victory, sighed heavily, and walked up to the front door. Opening it, I recognized him immediately. He was already there, waiting. Still tall and thin, still with very dark hair, almost black. I don’t remember if we shook hands, or exchanged an awkward hug. We already knew each other vaguely so it wouldn’t have been out of the question. More likely, we simple acknowledged each other’s presence. Quickly deducing that the place was not conducive to having a drink and talking, he suggested Monty’s on the Boulevard. We drove there in his truck. 

In those days, I was a divorcee and rather enjoying my single-hood after so many years with one who turned out to be wrong. I dated a lot, but no one for very long. The longest ended up being a very nice guy named David. We were together for four, maybe five months. We had even talked about him traveling with me at Christmas to visit my family. I broke up with him in early December. 

At the time of my date 22 years ago, I was actually seeing someone else. Obviously it wasn’t serious since I was open to going out with someone else. I knew the guy I was dating wasn’t right. We’d been friend for years, and he’d taken me to Cabo San Lucas at the end of January for a getaway that was supposed to be wonderful but turned out to be miserable. I had developed a reputation of not dating anyone for very long and losing interest quickly. But what could possibly go wrong with meeting someone I’d known peripherally years earlier for a cocktail? 

Monty’s on the corner of Ventura Boulevard and Topanga Canyon was and remains a steak house with a terrific bar. It’s been there forever and while I’d never visited, he had. I was fine with the choice. I was only going to have one drink anyway. It didn’t much matter where we went a long as there was a comfortable bar stool. 

A drink turned into appetizers turned into a pizza turned into closing the place The piano player in the bar was every bit the loungy player one would expect in a bar, though Monty’s is by no means a dive bar. It’s very upscale. By midnight, as the place was shutting down, the piano player started playing MacArthur’s Park and my date and I sang along, laughing that we both knew the words. Enjoying the hell out of ourselves.

That night was 22 years ago. The guy was Kevin. We’ve been inseparable ever since. Tonight we’re celebrating our first date anniversary. It’s corny, we know, but we do it every year. We may even break out in song, and I don’t think that I can take it….

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The hills are alive

by Lorin Michel Sunday, March 19, 2017 10:38 PM

Tonight is the annual Sound of Music Sing-a-long-to-the-movie at The Loft Cinema here in Tucson. I heard a commercial the other day when I was driving and in a brief moment of insanity, turned on a local radio station. I smiled. I can’t seem to get away from this movie and neither can anyone else it seems. The film was released in 1965. More than 52 years ago. And yet it’s popularity endures. Each year, the Hollywood Bowl does a live sing-a-long. Two years ago, NBC did a live broadcast of it with Carrie Underwood turning in an underwhelming performance. Or so I heard. The only good thing about that NBC show, again from what I heard, was Audra McDonald. I love her.

Unfortunately she wasn’t in the original film. Probably because she wasn’t born until 1970.

So there it was and there it is. Another sing-a-long. We didn’t go. Even though Kevin likes it, I – well, you know. 

As I type this, I find myself smiling, not because I’m getting all buttery about the idea of the Sound of Music – I’m not. But rather because for someone who can’t stand this movie, I tend to write about it a lot. I wonder what that says about me. 

Maybe I don’t actually hate it. 

Maybe the spectacle of Julie Andrews spinning around on top of a mountain in the nun version of lederhosen doesn’t make me want to vomit. 

Maybe I find the idea of people spontaneously bursting into song a perfectly normal way to live life. 


But no. 

I do hate it, I almost throw up every time, and most people I know can’t carry a tune if it had a handle, your humble blogger included. 

But damned if today, the hills weren’t alive. All the rain we received this winter, coupled with the unseasonable heat we’ve had for the past week, have caused the desert to explode in color. The hillside behind us is alive with yellow flowers. The tips of the ocotillos have blossomed into orange buds. The lower, small cacti have sprouted buds, and this morning, as we were cooking breakfast, Kevin glanced out the kitchen window onto the driveway. The house steps down from the drive so we’re almost level with it from that vantage. In the center of the driveway stands a saguaro that’s at least 20 feet tall, maybe taller. It’s surrounded by smaller saguaros, but it’s the one that commands the space. 

“Look,” Kevin said, pointing. “It’s already sprouting.” 

Sure enough, the top of that saguaro is starting to bud. It seems early this year. Usually it’s April before we see buds. Soon the top of it and all of the saguaros will sprout big, fluffy white flowers. 

They’ll be alive. They are alive. And the hills are, too. 

Maybe I should have gone to The Loft after all.  



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A total toad ban

by Lorin Michel Thursday, March 16, 2017 9:08 PM

I have a pronouncement to make. As of this day, in the month of March in the year of 2017, I have declared a total toad ban. I’ll be signing an executive order soon but in the meantime, I thought I’d pronounce my pronouncement. I fully admit to being prejudiced. I am proud to say I will not tolerate any of them, not on my driveway, not in my portico, not at the door – no, they all have to go. 

I’m sorry. I was channeling a bit of Theodor Geisel there for a minute. 

I never used to harbor such ill will and bad thoughts about toads. Or frogs for that matter. I’ve never particularly liked them. Frogs are slimy and I’m not big into slimy. I had to dissect one in biology in junior high school which I remember thinking was cruel and disgusting, but I had disliked them long before that. Toads never bothered me much, maybe because there isn’t the slime factor. They’re dry. 

Which explains why they love the desert so much in the spring and summer. I didn’t even dislike them when I first realized that they were, well, everywhere. No, when I first started to dislike them was when I heard a report on the local news on the local NPR station saying they were poisonous to dogs. 

Anything that’s poisonous to dogs is cause for extreme dislike, prejudice even. 

So I am here today to tell you that I will actively work to ban all toads great and small, of all colors and spots, but especially those that evidently hale from the Colorado River. These toads emit poison when dogs pounce on them and bite them, which dogs will do because dogs love things that move, and toads do a lot of hopping. 

We are dispensing with any extreme vetting. It’s not necessary. Instead they are immediately placed into the toad relocation program that’s in full effect. This program is operated by my husband, whom some of you may remember as the great toad launcher of 2016. He long ago signed onto the program and is a big fan. 

This morning, when we left for our walk, there was a toad in the portico. Luckily Riley was on a leash though he pulled and twisted and lunged as the toad hopped away. We walked, and when we returned, we didn’t see it; nor did Riley though it wasn’t for lack of trying. Dog has a mind like an elephant. He forgets nothing. 

But shortly after we returned, we heard the telling whine and huff coming from the front door. It’s a whine and huff and squeal, actually, and he only seems to do it when there’s a toad, which means we haven’t heard it for months. Because there are no toads in the fall and winter. We heard it big time at about 8:30. Kevin grabbed his relocation gear – his broom and extended dustpan. He captured the thing, and then climbed out of the portico, disappearing into the desert morning. It would have been ominous if it wasn’t such a pretty day. 

So the total toad ban has been instituted. The first toad of the season has been banned. Relocated. 

I can’t help but wonder, though, if it will hold up under constitutional scrutiny. You know, sort of like moose lambs.


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An occasional look into the television habits of your blogger

by Lorin Michel Wednesday, March 15, 2017 10:46 PM

The last few years have produced some exceptional television, some of it on networks and others on streaming services like Netflix, Hulu, and Amazon. For Kevin and I, the great era of TV started with the first episode of The West Wing. It remains a favorite in this household and still holds up well. It’s more aspirational now than ever. We were also fans of The X-Files, and later 24. We loved ER, and Grey’s Anatomy; earlier there was Thirtysomething and then Once and Again. On pay channels, we fell in love with Homeland and The Newsroom. We found Longmire one Memorial Day weekend when A & E was running a marathon. We liked The Killing which started on AMC and then moved to Netflix. Recently, we’ve found House of Cards and The Fall also on Netflix. We have in the cue Bloodline, Narco and others I can’t remember right now.

Network TV takes a beating with pay channels and streaming, but in the past years they’ve put out some decent stuff. The Good Wife comes to mind, as does Parenthood. I loved Parenthood, which is interesting because I didn’t ever love the film on which it was loosely based. I think I started watching it because I loved Lauren Graham as Lorelai Gilmore on Gilmore Girls. I didn’t think she was great in Parenthood, but the show was phenomenal. I remember crying like a baby at the incredible finale.

This year, my favorite new show has been This Is Us. I know I’m not alone in this. It is, evidently, quite the phenomenon. We watched the first episode because it was so hyped. We liked it; didn’t absolutely love it. Though interestingly we both thought it deserved at least another episode or two before making the ultimate decision. For no reason that I can think of, we never watched that other episode or two.

I’m online all day every day. I work, crafting whatever I need to craft for whichever client is screaming the loudest. And once I email said craft, I tend to surf through some of my favorite news sites to check on what’s happening and to clear my head. I write for different industries and it can be difficult to go from health care to asphalt paving to makeup without taking a brief interlude. One of the consistent stories I’ve seen, in addition to the horror that is the toddler in chief, is This Is Us and how phenomenal it is.

Last week while I was working on a big content upload project that required little creative brain power, I pulled the show up on Hulu. Hulu, like Netflix, is set for autoplay so as soon as one episode is over, it automatically starts the next and so it continues until I manually stop it. And I became completely hooked. Totally in love with the dysfunction and love and wonder of the Pearson clan, much like how I fell in love with the Parenthood Bravermans. Completely flawed individuals, people who are simply living their lives with no more or less drama than the rest of us. It’s incredibly written, beautifully acted, and very believable. 

Last night was the season finale. I watched it today while I was checking and answering emails. Nobody died even though everyone expected at least one of the characters to bite the dust. I guess we’ll have to wait until next season. 

Kevin Fallon who writes for The Daily Beast wrote this: “That’s been This Is Us’s strength all season, creating emotionally huge moments that should be manipulative and off-puttingly earnest, yet pinpointing their universality, no matter how ugly or devastating, and playing them in ways that we relate to in our lives. It’s why we can’t help but cry along. It was wonderful. But we still would have rather watched him die.”

We never watch television shows when they’re actually on for two reasons: we’re on Central Time which means shows start an hour earlier than they do on the east or west coast; and we don’t know when anything is actually on. We record a couple of things to watch later (Madam Secretary, SVU, Shades of Blue) but mostly we just watch on Hulu. This is one of the reasons we can get rid of satellite. We don’t need it. Television viewership has changed. Even ratings factor in both live watching as well as those on DVD or streaming. We’re part of the new way of watching, or not watching. We find what we like, we watch it when we want. And I like it. A lot.

In which Lorin is workshopped

by Lorin Michel Monday, March 13, 2017 10:14 PM

Yesterday was my workshop. Lest you think that I have suddenly taken up woodworking, let me quickly assure you that my version of workshop is different. Because I’ve gone back to school, a number of words take on different meaning as do a number of phrases. “What do you have to do today” being one. Kevin asks me regularly and I regularly list off all that I have to accomplish, and then add “and school.” Because on top of my work, I have school work to do, too.

I’m not complaining. I love that I’ve gone back to school even though I don’t have a lot of free time. Hell, I didn’t have a lot of free time before. Now, I have less. 

I thought the other day how interesting it must be to actually be able to sit at night and not have anything to do. To not be worried about what didn’t get done and must be done tomorrow. I can’t remember the last time I had that kind of freedom. On Saturday nights, I often shut down my computer early and pretend I don’t have anything else to do. But the idea of leaving my work at the office is a myth. And school. 

I’ve taken two classes now. The first was last fall; the second is the one I’m just finishing. In fact, we’re in the last week of this class. Yesterday was the culmination of my writing in this class. I was workshopped. 

Workshop is when you sit quietly while all of your fellow classmates talk about your story and tell you everything that’s wrong with it and what you might do to fix it. It’s an interesting process. Yesterday was my first one. 

I’ve had critiques of my work before but I’ve never had to sit and listen to others as they destroyed my story. It wasn’t in person, of course; it was via zoom. But we were all on camera so we might as well have been in person. 

And it wasn’t bad. I had looked forward to it, to be honest. I wanted to experience my classmates talking about my story to me, telling me what they liked (hopefully) and what they didn’t (expected as it was a draft), talking about what I might change, how I might approach certain scenes. The professor started off the workshop asking specific questions. It was his way to get the conversation rolling and roll it did. 

I found out that most liked the general gist of my story, that there were some parts that were confusing. That the writing has issues that I already knew about. I’m not dismissing it at all. I’m just stating a fact. I know I overwrite. I know I hold back on descriptions of feelings, of the internal view of a character. I know all of this. I don’t know why I do it but I remain hopeful that by understanding it, I might be able to rise above it.

It was a fascinating thing, workshop. It was a good thing. It was a learning thing. A thing that I’m celebrating today.


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Rockin' out

by Lorin Michel Saturday, March 11, 2017 8:42 PM

I don't like to work outside. Technically I don't like to work inside either but that bothers me less. I have never liked to garden or plant; I don't care what a particular species is. I don't know most trees from other trees; there are types of cactus here in the desert I don't know the names of yet and I'm ok with that. It's a bit surprising that I don't like to work in the yard since I like to be outside. I blame my mother (sorry, mom) because she used to make us work in the yard when we were kids. I've never liked to be "made" to do anything, something mom can attest to. Ditto my late father, my brother and sister, my ex-husband, my current husband, my kid.

But today, I worked outside. Not for very long but long enough to help my husband.

Every once in a while, we need to disassociate. We have been and remain consumed by the politics of this time. We rant and rave and plot and plan. It's exhausting and all consuming. And necessary. But even the most hardened anarchists need a break from it all every now and again. It's why I have school and why Kevin spends so much time doing physical things. Several weeks ago, he spent time redoing the brakes on the Classic. Last weekend he started back on his never-ending swale project. Yesterday, he went to Lowes and various other places including a stone and rock place called D & D. He came home with several buckets of decorative stone for the sides of the driveway. 

This is something we've been planning to do since we moved in ­– to finish the driveway so that when you come up to the house, it doesn't look under construction. We love the desert look. All of our vegetation is completely natural. We only use native plants. Kevin has transplanted several cacti from other areas of our property to where he wants them. He did this is the center round-about, he did it along the driveway, coincidentally where we placed rock last night. 

He dumped his six buckets of rocks, lovely ½” desert brown, and I donned my new work-outside gloves and spread the rock around. Yes, I do realize the incongruity of someone hating to work outside having work-outside gloves. It’s my second pair. Justin got me the first years ago when he worked at the Do-it-Center in Agoura. I finally wore through them last fall. Kevin got me a new, heavy duty pair for Christmas.

The results of this decorative rock were stunning. 

So today, after swaling, and while I was at the grocery store, he went back to the rock store, twice, each time coming home with eight buckets of rock. He dumped them each along the south side of the driveway, and once I had put away groceries, I once again donned my work gloves and with the help of his knee pads, spread it around. 

We’re not done. But we made progress, and it’s going to be just gorgeous when it’s done.

Today we rocked out. And it was a good thing.


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